For the last twenty years I've taken pride that I lived my life with joy and I vowed I'd not let anything change that. In September, 2019, it was discovered that I had a malignant growth on my left kidney. My surgery was set for November. I vowed I'd live these three months at the same level of joy I'd lived prior to the discovery. This journal, with photos and videos, takes the reader on that journey. It is my hope that others who have received a similar diagnosis with gain strength from the journal.