The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansionâand, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the keyâfrom one of the few people who truly knows: Hefâs former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door
A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefnerâs #1 girlfriend. But like Aliceâs journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansionâincluding A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four yearsâquickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasnât a dream at allâand quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.
But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.
In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.
With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreamsâand finding the life we deserve.
Nina
2022-11-24
Authentic, open and though she took some jabs at some people she kept it classy. I loved getting a real look into the messed up mansion life.
Eira
2021-09-20
En god tid före #Metoo kunde vi se Holly, Kendra och Bridget pĂ„ tv i âGirls next doorâ och frĂ„ga oss varför dom tre ens kunde vilja lĂ„tsas vara flickvĂ€nner till Hugh Hefner, en man gammal nog att vara alla deras farfar (eller farfars farfar?). HĂ€r fĂ„r vi veta att vĂ€ldigt mycket av det vi sĂ„g givetvis var fejk, men det som hĂ€nde bakom kameran Ă€r vĂ€rre Ă€n vad dom flesta av oss kunde förestĂ€lla oss. Holly gĂ„r tillbaka till krĂ€nkande och förminskande hĂ€ndelser och samtal hon haft med mĂ€nniskor genom Ă„ren, varav mycket tar plats i Playboy vĂ€rld, och gör vad vi alla velat göra sjĂ€lva nĂ„gon gĂ„ng i livet, ger dom svar nu som hon av olika anledningar inte kunde ge dĂ„. Hos mig vĂ€cks en tillfredsstĂ€lld kĂ€nsla av att höra en kvinna som utsatts för maktmissbruk och manipulation fĂ„ sista ordet.